Too late for love?

Thank you for this moment. The breeze is cool, the sun's shining bright in it's glory. I'm here at the bus station having missed my 4.20 bus to Chicago! and waiting for the next one at 5.20. I'm truly hoping that I would make it on time for my flight to Austin to see my baby brother. I had gone to Meena's place yesterday and I heard her sister say "See all these people are here for the funeral ceremonies, where were they when she was sick? There was no one to take her for cheamos, there was no one by her side when she was sick". As she said that I felt like it was a slap on my cheek. I loved Meena a lot and I still do, but did I do enough justice to the word "I love you".

Did I do enough justice to my friendship with her. Did I do enough justice to the "value of human life?" I had my rough times with Meena for sure. I would not say that my perception of my relationship with her was right wither. Meena loves to talk a lot and her cheamo made it very difficult for her and she would talk more. Sometimes the things that she would say were completely out of context and there were times when it was very difficult to handle the same. Now, that used to be my excuse to not call her. "My excuses".

Today, when she is gone, I realize how much I miss her. It comes back to me that, may be I could have spent a little more time for her and may be I could have done more to help her. Now after the person is gone, here I am, writing this on a peice of paper, with a sense of guilt and dissatisfaction. I could shy this away by saying that I am being too hard on myself. I could very well say that "I tried my very best". Is it really true? Did I do my very best? Do we all do our very best? What is happening to our lives is that, we all have g0tten very busy.

Very busy in our lives that we don't have the time for others. We are so caught up with "our lives" that we miss being there for those who are our very own. For me, personally, it has come down to this - "Will I be able to show face to myself, in yet another moment like this? Will I be able to show face to myself, every single moment when it comes to the people that I love and respect"? Respect. That's the word that comes to my mind. True love isn't true without Respect and Reverence. True love never finds excuses no matter how tough it is. 'True love' is always being there. True love is treating another right always. True love is doing your duty with utmost dedication. True love is about giving. True love is about allowing another to love to. True love is Unconditional Acceptance.

...I'm here at the airport n0w and I am thankful for this moment. It is so beautiful that I do not wish to walk away from it. This moment has transformed me. This moment has taught me something more. I am thankful for the quiet and peace. This moment sums everything that I've expressed above. I see this advertisement on the TV that says... "Don't almost give. GIVE."